Melatonin, Wicked + Stephen King

Am I using Blogger Beta? Fuck no. This bitch eats enough of my blogs as it is!

So, I have problems sleeping. I also have mental issues that make me hallucinate. A lot. This means I have to sleep with lights on, which makes sleeping problems worse. My mum got me some melatonin, which is a sleep hormone that apparently only happens naturally in the brain if you sleep in the dark.
I took 3mg of it last night an hour before bed. Slept very deeply, had some very weird and disturbing dreams. One where one of my teachers was murdered on a school trip - a real school trip by the way, where our General Studies group were taken to see Mother Courage and her Children. 2 out of 20 managed to sit through the whole thing - most of us went out in the first interval and went to the York Dungeon instead. Anyway, it was a very bizarre dream where my English teacher got stabbed, my General Studies teacher had some sort of nervous breakdown and I lost my scooter helmet. I have a lot of scooter helmet loss anxiety dreams.
Then I had a vague, disturbing and unpleasent dream about one of my ex boyfriends and some kind of sexual abuse. I don't remember it well at all, and I'm glad.
The effects of the melatonin didn't wear off. I've been a zombie all day. Couldn't do any homework or writing or anything, just worked on my website. It took me half an hour to work out how to make a button on flash - I've been making websites on there for YEARS! Actionscript is a fucking bitch though, at the best of times, so I'm not blaming the melatonin for that completely.
For people who read my blog, a preview of how my website will look from 1st December onwards:

Claws Nail Art December Layout

And yes, I really have committed myself to making one new nail design every day. I'm going to regret that XD I'm still figuring out how to make the advent calendar itself, never mind the damn nail designs. Hardly anyone goes on my website anyway (hint - advertise for me!) so it's a bit of a waste of time.

I went xmas shopping yesterday - I now have presents for Gloworm and Sparkler (Immi's childs), Immi (but I'm going to get her something else as well parce que it was cheap) and my dad. I got my dad more huge slippers, I get him the same every year cos by the next christmas he's worn holes in the bottom. I already had got:

[WARNING WARNING GLOWORM AND SPARKLER PRESENT INFO COMING UP]

Jelly bean thing for both childs, and some blue tack and white tack which they love to play with and make little creatures out of. I got Gloworm a short dress/long top that is brown and white and very pretty. I'm still panicky about whether she'll like it or not - I'm bad at knowing what other people will like to wear. But I've got the receipt, if she hates it she can get something else prettyful. I got Sparkler a pretty silver necklace with crystal flowers and leaves, and a pair of little sparkly flower earrings - they're only studs cos Immi won't let her wear long earrings until she's 13 but they're quite big studs, so I think she'll like them.

I just finished reading Wicked by Gregory Maguire. If anyone hasn't heard of it - it's the story of the Wicked Witch of the West from 'The Wizard of Oz'. It tells the story of her life before the story of the wizard of Oz, and from her point of view. There's a musical based on it which is also awesome, but the book is much darker and has more political and religious conflict - the musical is more centered around the love story (which is important in the book, but doesn't last for very long). Anyway, yes. Read it.

I bought it in a 3 for 2 offer at Waterstones - so of course had to buy two more books to go with it :D I got Rose Madder and The Stand by Stephen King. The Stand weighs a ton - it's 1300 and something pages - apparently that's as long as Lord of the Rings. However, it only cost £7.99. I wonder why it was so cheap when I had to pay £17 for the Postsecret book - yes it's full colour printing and hardback - but it's about a 3rd of the length and contains hardly any words!

For anyone wondering what the fuck 'Postsecret' is - click HERE. It's one of my favourite websites, and I luffs it.

In other news, I have a boil on my chin. The size of a large grape. If it's still there tomorrow, I am not going to school. Acne is normal in teenagers, and I can deal with it. But boils? That's going just too far.

(My skin is way better in general - but I ate much cake and chocolate on Friday. Stupid mistake. The rest of my skin looks pretty good though, so hopefully I havn't done too much damage.)

Bike! =D

I finished my CBT today, and my pretty pretty black scooter was delivered this afternoon. It arrived just as I got back from Bradford, where I was doing my CBT. So I was out for 2 hours this morning on the roads, and I've been to Sowerby Bridge and back his afternoon. I did well when I was with the instructor, but I made many silly mistakes this afternoon. I set off with my helmet unfastened, then I forgot to stop accelerating while I was trying to stop and came within about 2 inches of running into the back of someone, and then SOMEHOW my bike stopped at some traffic lights and didn't start again. Automatic things don't stall so I havn't got a clue what happened there. By the time I got it sorted out the light had gone red again =(
However, it was lots of fun and I managed to get 40mph out of it when I was going down hill :o 16 year olds aren't allowed over 30 but I don't care =) it was an accident :D And it was in a 40mph area, so it's not SO bad. It wasn't speeding.
Now I am tired, and won't go out again today I don't think. It is very windy and I was wobbling a lot coming back from Sowerby Bridge. Tomorrow though, I shall do lots of practise.
It's the X Factor this evening, and Eton Road are singing a Scissor Sisters song, so that should be good =D apparently Ben has a throat infection, so he'll probably be sucky. I kind of want him to go out, so Eton Road and Leona have better chances of winning - but that would mean another week of the Macdonald Brothers and Robert, who have stayed in for way too long. Especially the fucking Macdonald Brothers.
I'll get a photo of my bike tomorrow, and all my pretty things I have to wear when riding it. I have a black shiny helmet and black and red clothes with bits in so I won't injure myself if I fall off. And boots, OMG big leather boots which are snuggly =D
I'm behind on NaNo and feeling lazy. Might quit, but not yet. I'll write a few thousand tonight.

Eeee! First Character Death!

...but it's a subtle one :P She's just disappeared. They can be bloody later, the last one's going to be absolutely disgusting. However, I'm very pleased with myself. This is all happening in a big flashback, so it's all happened really, but it's lots of fun. I just set up the group asshole, who will eventually get stabbed and die horribly :) His is arrogant, sexist, homophobic and a general bastard. At the moment, however, he is just bickering about sleeping arrangements and being manipulative. The homophobia is going to get him killed though, by one of my lovely but completely unplanned gay characters who appeared because I ran out of ideas for characters who must be different enough from eachother to be interesting.
It's going very well though. I love my main characters, and I love my main character's seven friends even though I'm going to kill all of them. And I love my forest - it's so pretty in the day time and so fucking horrific at night. And I love the river demon who's going to appear later in an underground library where he tortures the souls of the dead.

...yeah, he wasn't in the plan either.

Hahahahahah I <3

Off School Watching Funny Videos

Exactly what the title says :P Dianette made me feel sick so I'm staying at home. I've done most of my art work I was behind on, and now I'm watching funny videos on YouTube.



Very cute and funny babies :P



I love this XD



Just a note to Immi - a couple of the pranks in this have people wearing scary masks, might want to check it before showing it to Gloworm.

And now I am eating cheese sandwiches so must go. Might post another blog later. Byeee.

I am Reading: Artemis Fowl book 5, Eoin Colfer
I am Listening to: Nothing
I am Watching: Might watch IwtV in a bit
I am Writing: Waterlevel - hit 10000 words yesterday!

Funny Cat Videos

I'm not posting anything from NaNo at the moment, there's no bits that really make sense on their own just now. But it's going well, I'm over 8000 words (havn't started writing for today yet, I like working in the evenings).

Anyway, here's a couple of videos of cats being amusing :p These videos are child friendly, so don't worry about your parents catching you watching them/showing them to kids, etc.



That one's my favourite, but this one's good as well



Now I shall go and write some NaNo, I think, and then do some more work on my website.

Ugh - Too Much Work!

Ugh. I have an English essay due in tomorrow which I havn't started. And three art projects to do (yes, I'm very behind). I really can't be bothered. I'm doing Nano :P I'm over 4000 words now and I'm going to write at least another 1000 tonight, but after my English essay I think. I'm also sorting out my X Factor playlist, and trick or treating on Gaia. If you collect enough candy you get free items :D
I'm pretty happy with Nano so far. The writing isn't as good as something I'd spend more time on, but that's what second drafts are for :P I'm concentrating on getting the plot and dialogue out, because dialogue is what I suck at and plot is what I sometimes sort of forget about. I'm enjoying writing insanity, although there's some lumpy dialogue there that's going to need editing, so none of today's dialogue is getting posted online. You can have some description instead :P
My new piercing has got infected. I'm not entirely surprised, I did use a very grubby needle and I havn't been keeping it as clean as I should. And I've been changing the earring a lot, which you're not meant to do for 6 weeks. So yeah, it's gooey and hurty. I'm just leaving this earring in now until it gets better.
Hmm, what else...

This movie looks very good, but a bit scary. I'll have to see it though, even if it scares me forever. And hopefully there'll be no stupid people in the cinema bitching about it not being in English, like there are on the IMDB message board. >sigh<

And now I have run out of stuff to talk about :) Here ish nano.

The door swung open with the first gentle push of my fingertips. The hinges were silent but the lower edge of the door made a soft scuffing sound as it dragged across the wooden floor boards. The inside of the hut was dim, although the windows let in plenty of light it seemed to be watered down as soon as it crossed the window ledges, and the corners of the room gathered shadows as thick as cobwebs. One watery ray of light rippled on a chalked square in the centre of the floor, illuminating it in palest gold and making every speck of dust glow as they spun slowly through the hot, heavy air.
At a glance, the hut could have appeared empty. In fact, for a second I panicked that perhaps he had gone out into the village. He could be anywhere by now, and after what I’d heard I wasn’t sure that was safe for him or for anyone else. Then I saw, in one of the corners, a dark shape of a man. I pushed the door fully open and the light hit him, revealing one side of his face and body and forcing him to raise one hand and blink owlishly in the sudden glare.
I noticed that his hands were streaked with dried blood and that his fingernails were splintered stumps. The fingers were hooked like claws and trembled slightly. There was blood on his face and in his hair, and his clothes were speckled with it. The blood streaked hair was long, falling to a little below his shoulders, and the colour of dry, baked mud. It was unwashed and uncombed, and clung to his face and neck in matted clumps. He was younger than I’d expected, perhaps eighteen or nineteen, but his eyes seemed as ancient as the forest itself.

Nanowrimo Begins!

I started writing today, and after ten minutes was forced to admit I had writers block. I spent nearly an hour writing and rewriting the first chapter, and eventually ditched it and went straight to the second. The first chapter was all background anyway, I'll just put it in later.on
I'm on 2227 words now. W00t!
I also made my first ever NaNoIsm. "Askelu stretched out his head". Obviously, I meant legs. And that was in the first 1000 words. This can only get worse XD
I think I will start posting a paragraph of what I've written each day. Not all of it, otherwise I'd have a whole book here by the end of it and that's a lot of space taken up. Anyway, see the end of this blog for a paragraph from my first chapter of NaNoWriMo!
Today was a good day, because I didn't have art. It was my favourite subject last year, but I've got quite a dislike for it now. My teachers suck, the work sucks, everything sucks. Like a horseshoe. Today was English and Sociology, which I love. However, the library was closed and I had to work in the sixth form common room, complete with talentless boys on guitars and giggling teenage girls. Oh joy.
Anyway, I'd better finish this off. My mother is screaming.

“I suppose you’re not particularly familiar with his story?” He said. It wasn’t really a question. I nodded. “Then let me explain. This guy left Sanctuary about eight weeks ago with seven childhood friends, one of whom he was in a relationship of some sort with. I don’t know the details, I don’t suppose it matters. The point is, they all died out there. Seven nice kids… well, not kids any more but I remember them before it all happened, you know.” His eyes took on a vague, distant look. “Used to spend a lot of time with my daughter, Oemi. I’m just glad she didn’t get mixed up in any of this; they had some kind of falling out when they were teenagers and haven’t spoken since. I felt sorry for her at the time, any parent would, poor kid suddenly loses her friends like that but damn, I’m glad now. She’d have gone with them; my Oemi would have followed those friends of her anywhere they chose to lead her.” He took a shaky breath. “Sorry, this story gets my a little shaken up. I knew those kids, knew them nearly as well as my daughter… Anyway, they didn’t survive out there, every one of them died. I don’t know how and judging from some of the crazy shit he’s been saying, neither does he. He wandered about for six weeks out there, six weeks! He’s lucky to be alive at all. No one, except possibly him, knows what happened out there, where they went, what they saw. All we know is that he was spotted lying at the bottom of the Wall, still outside, covered in mud and blood and, well, he looked dead. A couple of people went down to get him, climbed right up and right down the Wall. Braver people than me, let me tell you.” He paused, and ran a hand through his hair. “Just the thought of going up there makes me shudder, looking out and seeing all those trees, moving all the time even when there’s no wind. No wonder everyone in this place is fucking crazy.”